All I’ve wanted to do was buy makeup. Maybe this addiction is just one of my periodic obsessions, but I feel like it’s retail therapy in its finest. Maybe if I looked pretty, then no one would be able to see how broken up I really am.
1. cut 4 inches off and wear it straight and layered (typical asian hair i guess)
2. keep it long and perm it (so i don’t have to curl it everyday)
3. or i can just keep it long but layer and slice off all the dead stuff so it’s sleeker…
i feel like i need something new but long wavy hair has always been my go to. my signature thing. i just want to be able to wear my hair straight because curling is such a hassle. unless i perm it. right now my hair is too long and dead to wear straight. it’s like a horse’s tail
i remember one time i was sick on the couch with a fever, and i asked you if there was any more beef noodle in the freezer because i was hungry. 5 minutes later, you opened the freezer, said “yes”, and went back to the computer. I’m laying there wondering if i deserved this, if my unemployment and your long hours meant that you were free of any responsibility. i got up and made my own food. I asked you to take out the dog and you complained about it, like you always do. So that night, with the fever, i would take her out myself when i didn’t feel like hearing you complain some more.
Now you are on the couch with a fever, watching anime. i am supposed to take care of you. i asked you to come WITH me to take misa for a walk, and you said “beb i have a FEVER.” So Lu offers to take her out, and you respond with “that’s not the point, i have a FEVER and she wants me to go out in the cold.”
i don’t feel like i have the energy to bring this up with you, but do i not deserve to be taken care of too? why do you feel its appropriate to complain EVERY single time i ask you to take misa out to pee? Many times I’ve had a cold, and i kept my mouth shut because i almost felt like i don’t have the right to complain. because you work and i don’t, so i don’t deserve to be tired. i mention that i’m sick sometimes, and it just sort of passes through your head and by now i figured you just don’t really care, because your needs come before mine.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
when the mice/mouse infesting your home is cute?
Sometimes it sucks to be an animal lover.
for our one year anniversary in Yellowstone or Yosemite. We can’t decide which one yet. I NEED TO RECONNECT WITH NATURE. I always took our old family trips to national parks for granted. Now that I haven’t been to one for years, I’ve been having terrible urges. To complete the picture would be to bring Misa along. I can’t imagine leaving her behind :(
I’m such an obsessive mother. I’ve been so ocd about misa’s food lately, and finding the best brands for her. People don’t realize the crap that goes into commercial dog food, like bones, guts, beaks, dead animals, etc. I’ve spent over $100 trying out different brands and seeing what she likes. it doesn’t help that she’s so picky, eats so little, and has such a small mouth.
maybe i’m taking it too far but i’m thinking about just cooking for her :) it makes me excited to think about preparing little mini meals for her in a small little bowl, while i eat a bigger portion of the same food for myself :) misa can be on the same diet as me basically. i just want the best for my daughter :)
i left misa in the car the other day to buy food, and i saw her watching me walk away from the car window. so sad :( now i know how my parents felt when they had to leave me on my first day of school
- rep 100 lb squats before my next homework assignment is due (nov 2). actually i could probably do it now. maybe i need to reassess.